Kundalini with Krishna White
My first kundalini awakening experience.
I had just finished a strenuous sculpt class with Steph just before the music of Nahko Bear drew me into the next room. Krishna was preparing for his Breathwork & Shamanic Journeying class.
I entered with the attitude that I would finish what I started. I had no expectations, but if anything, I was skeptical. Really, how could breathing alone can allow you to enter a different dimension?
The promise of bliss at the tail end of the class was the carrot for me to do the work. But at some point during the breathing, I could not move my arms. It was scary. The idea of experiencing first hand what it feels to be paralyzed was intense.
At some point during the breath work, I lost a sense of where I was. Next thing I know, I was trembling uncontrollably making some foreign noises somewhere between crying and laughing, but definitely struggling. Thankfully, by the time I realized where I was, Krishna was there with one hand on my chest to comfort me, and asked me to hang on a few more minutes. I was able to finally calm down by slowing down my breathing (per his advice) and eventually had feeling in my arms again.
It was unlike anything I had experienced before.
After the physical tremors subsided, I fell into the deepest sadness I have ever felt. At first, it was unclear to me where the sadness was coming from, but I quickly gravitated towards to the eventually loss of my parents (who are still thankfully with me today).
But I think it was also a sadness in eventually losing all that I cherish, even myself.
I feel as if I had kept something bottled up for a long time and it all came gushing out. I was so spent by the end, I had to sit down for a few minutes before leaving the room.
Today I feel great. I feel as if a huge weight of emotions has be unloaded, and I can appreciate everything a little more because of it. In a real sense, I feel lighter.
As men, it's not accepted in our culture to cry. Sadness even seen as a sign of weakness. I grew up with 3 brothers. Suffice to say, our upbringing was primarily masculine driven.
The release of stored up emotions is an emotional weight off your entire being.